The Sparrow

[In continuation with the post "The Fox" in May, 2010]

The moon was beautiful in the night sky.. and it might always have been so, but the sparrow could never see it. 

Born with defects, the sparrow lived the early days of her childhood in the cozy nest wondering if she could ever spread her wings out to fly. The deformed left wing she had, which looked almost like fractured, was a birth defect, she was told, and it was enough to put her out of the league forever. To add to that, many of her feathers had been missing at the time of her birth, because the birth had not been natural. The egg had to be cracked open by the parents. They suspected till their death that the force they had applied to bring her out of that shell might have caused a permanent injury to the brain. But death takes all the suspicions along, and leaves life at a blank.

Rest apart, there was a problem that could possibly have no solution. The sparrow had another disability that her parents never could notice their whole life. The sparrow was born blind.

The little sparrow had been contentedly lying in her nest, singing to herself on a cloudy day, too young to fetch food herself. The parents had left early in the morning, leaving her alone in her dark, black world. It was then, that a contained slithering sound to her left made her jump, for she knew her parents could not have been back yet, and they made a different sound: she thought.

“Now here’s my meal!” came the high pitched voice, which startled the sparrow even more.

“Who are you?”

“Well, they call me a snake…”

“A snake..?”, said the sparrow, a note of interest in her voice.

“Yes. And I eat sparrows”, hissed the snake with greed in his voice.

“You… eat…”, the sparrow stammered, shaking her head madly, as if that would scare it away. The snake moved closer and looked at the poor sparrow, and realized in an instant that not only was she ugly and physically a wreck, she was blind too.

“You are blind!”, the snake hissed in surprise.

“I’m what?”

“Blind… you can’t see can you?”

“See? I don’t know what you are talking about…”

There was a long and distressing pause before the snake spoke again.

“Oh… I’ll have to look for some other animal now… I can’t kill you… I won’t!”

And the snake slithered away. The sparrow was surprised by this lucky escape, but she was still confused about what the snake had said. She thought she would ask her parents when they got back what “blind” meant.

But they never returned.

Terribly hungry and the thirst nearly killing her, she lay in her nest wondering what happened to her parents. It rained heavily in the night, and she was relieved of thirst, but hunger was still haunting her. She could feel heavy droplets painfully smashing on her head. She was witnessing the worst torment she’d ever felt. She screamed in agony as heavier droplets attacked her fragile and weak body, but no one heard her amongst the thunder. And just as she thought that nothing could have been worse, she felt her nest falling apart. The fall from the topmost branch had never seemed to end as more and more leaves and branches whipped against her, till she finally landed heavily upon the muddy ground.

She lay there motionless, and any living being would have pitied the state she was in. She had no idea how much time had passed when she woke up. But after that, it had been a completely new life for her.

She would still feel proud of herself whenever she recalled all the things she had to endure to keep her alive in a world she could not see. She would often cry, recalling the struggle she had made to comprehend the world and its workings, to understand the meaning of “blind”, to learn to fly with a broken wing, and most importantly, to find food for herself without the use of sight.

She would remember how at times she had nearly given up all hope. Though she had learnt to find food with the other senses she had, and though she managed to fly nearly well even with a broken wing, and that too, much better than other sparrows who called themselves “normal”, she was haunted by a constant feeling of emptiness within her. She would often think how life would have been if she hadn’t been blind or deformed.

But that was till she once flew to a new place. It was a small house with a family of foxes living in it, she could easily tell by their sounds. She started to spend her time on the branches of an oak tree in front of their house and would listen to them intently. As the days passed by, she identified one of them to be half-blind and with a disabled limb. Though at first she had felt pity for poor creatures like herself and the fox, she soon realized how different they both were.

She learned that when compared to the fox, she was still way ahead and better in all respects. The poor fox seemed to hate his life more than he ought to. But she did feel pity for the fox when his parents died and his brothers left him… and for a moment a memory from her past tormented her again. But now she was strong; stronger than she ever had been. She had now realized how beautiful and blessed her life was.

And when she knew for sure that the nature of the poor fox will cause him to perish uselessly, she had decided to help him out. She had resolved that by any means, she would teach the poor fox before he died, a lesson she had learnt long ago. She knew that it would not be an easy job, but then, she rarely found anything quite easy… she was very much used to it.

And so, the sparrow started to spend her time and energy to feed the fox. And it was weeks before she finally faced the fox.

“The one who deserves to see the moon is the one who has done his labour for the day, and has earned his own food, the one who has worked hard and tried his best to make his living, irrespective of his success.” The fox had been very fascinated by these words she had spoken. And the tone in the fox’s voice told the sparrow that she had managed to do what she had decided.

So, while the fox had gone about to hunt, the sparrow sat simply, pondering over her actions. There had been countless times when she had felt surprised at her own strengths. The desire to live is itself an impetus beyond par, and she knew it very well by now. And though she had given the fox the strength he needed, she wondered if the moon she never had seen was really of as much splendid beauty that she had described. She wondered if the fox could ever glimpse it.

Surprisingly, the fox had managed to catch a prey by completely ignoring the stabbing pain in his entire body. And happily, she had told the fox to wait till the moon showed up in the dark skies above.

And now as the sparrow sat high atop the dark and august trees, singing praises for Lord, she could feel the full moon that she could not see. And equally well, several feet below her, she could feel a life departing the forest grounds.

A tear slipped off her lifeless eyes as she flapped her broken wings and took off into the night.

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The Hero

The lure of power has never touched humility. And the weasel very well knew it. 

If the wonderful forest of this story had anything to boast of, it was its four special creatures. Unlike the other animals of their own species, they were quite extraordinary, not by their own efforts, but by the gift of gods, or so the legend has it.

The tribe of hyenas that lived in the northern part of the forest took unnerving pride in their brother. The older ones in the tribe still vividly recollect the thrilling tale of a baby hyena born in the midst of a thunderstorm. While even the elder ones had stayed under the shades, the little kid had ventured out into the open grounds and incidentally got struck by a lightning bolt so powerful that it could have brought down the strongest of trees. As the members of the tribes watched in horror, and the thunder competed with the parents’ terrified screams, the little hyena, set ablaze, ran wildly about in circles. And each one of them had watched in awe, as the flames subsided and the kid had walked over to them, unscathed! “That was great!”, the kid had said without a slightest quiver in its voice or even a trace of fear in its eyes. The place where this unbelievable incident took place was still worshipped by the tribe.

Since then, the legendary Hyena has had the power of the lightning with him.

No lesser was the pride that the lynx had for their proclaimed leader whose story of rebirth was no rumour. It had been prophesised that the birth of a child would make their tribe remembered forever, and they were overjoyed for this baby lynx. Never had they suspected that their happiness would be so short-lived. The baby had not been breathing! The birth of a dead child, although not unheard of, had been new to their tribe. “This is something we will remember forever. Perhaps this was what the prophecy meant”, they had thought. Upon the insist of the tribe, with a heavy heart, the parents had left the new born kid outside the village bounds in an open windy field. The eastern winds would soon have taken the smell of the body to some scavenger lurking for flesh. The surprise the tribe three days later had when they saw the same kid walking back to its home, and say “I’m back”, was so much that one of the tribe’s elderly had died of shock. It was as if the eastern winds had blown life back into his lungs. The place where the newborn had been left would remain sacred to the tribe till time lasted.

Since then, the legendary Lynx has had the power of the winds with him.

Birds of prey had never been known to be able to swim in anything other than air, much less in water. And that would have remained the case, had the nasty incident in a southern part of the forest not taken place. A usual quarrel had been raging at a very unfortunate time for the baby hawk which was still unborn. In the scuffle that ensued, the egg had unceremoniously fallen out of the nest, and had rolled all the way down to the river. The shell had cracked open on a rocky landing, and the group’s squabbling had been halted by a heart-wrenching cry that lasted no more than a few seconds, as the baby hawk was pulled into the water stream. The hawks had remained motionless as the parents let out a scream at the top of their voices, which, it was rumoured, had not been unheard by any creature of the forest. The hawks fervently believed that this scream had been heard even by the gods, or how else could they have believed their eyes to not have ditched them just five minutes later! They had gasped in unison as, from the very spot that the newborn had fallen, bubbles emanated in the otherwise smooth but strong current of the river. And then the newborn had launched itself out from the surface of the water to fly back to its nest. The hawks still held that place in the river as holy and untouched by any other.

Since then, the legendary Hawk has had the power of the waters with him.

The small tribe of hartebeests residing peacefully in the western part of the forest had never imagined in their wildest dreams that they’d live to see this day. Although indignant, they knew it well that power and fame was not something that fate had for them. Their physical build was not such that allowed them to be of any other use than for finding food for themselves. They were already quite small in number, and hence were saddened by grief over the death of the newborn kid in their tribe. And the cause of the death was something they would have been glad to forget, had the aftermath gone unseen. Even today they winced at the thought of a newborn baby being crushed under the weight of a huge boulder, larger than the largest elephant in the neighbouring tribe. The parents wailed, and the tribe, knowing that they could never stand the sight of their broken child, had not made any effort to move the rock. The next day had seen the entire tribe wondering in lamenting tones what could have brought such tragedy on to the parents. But the day after, the tribe saw to their amazement a slight movement in the rock, and within no time, the newborn had moved it apart, and walked up as if nothing had happened. Since even the strongest males in the tribe could move the rock with great effort and only as a group, the tribe of hartebeests revered it even to this day.

Since then, the legendary Hartebeest has had the power of the rocks with him.

The king of the forest held these four creatures in the highest esteem. So much so, that if it were not for the fear of having his kingdom divided, he’d certainly have given it to them. He had not the slightest doubt over their unfathomable power and capability to turn all odds in their favour.

And that was precisely the reason that they all had been summoned in the grand courtroom this fine day.

“You can do this, can you not?” the king asked, almost pleadingly.

With the presence of all the ministers and most part of the forest, the environment had become tense. Time seemed to have stopped moving from the moment a weasel had announced a startling piece of information to all of them. According to it, in the untouched depths of the river that flowed through the forest, lay a chest of treasure of immense value. There was no direct means of extracting the box, since not only was the river extremely deep, but the box, heavier than one could expect, was buried under mounds of sand and rock. The king was extremely pleased with this information, and promised one fiftieth of whatever that treasure was to the weasel.
He knew pretty well that nothing could be called impossible as long as those four special creatures lived. And so he had invited them to his court and given them the task.

“We certainly can do this, my Lord. We will be needy of some time to figure out how exactly we are going to do this”, the Hawk said.

“Certainly... You can use the royal guest-house for as long as you want.”

The Hawk, the Hyena, the Lynx and the Hartebeest gathered in the luxurious guest-house, where they were sure not to be overheard.

“So…”

It was the Lynx who broke the long silence as they sat around the fireplace.

“The plan is obvious, isn’t it? We just need to work out the other thing”, said the Hyena.

“Yes. It is very easy to do this. But this might also be the opportunity to seize the kingdom. We need to work out how”, said the Hawk.

“Indeed! We have so much power, why can’t we just use this time to overthrow the king? The problem is that we must not make it look like we seized the kingdom by force”, said the Lynx.

They all fell silent again.

“I say,” said the Hartebeest, “let us do this task and see what happens. I’m personally tired of calling that fool “your Majesty” every time. We will just have to make the opportunity on our way.”

They all agreed to this, because none of them could seem to have a better idea. And so they approached the king, but not before they had enjoyed all the royal luxuries. The happiness on the king’s face was reflected in each of the faces present in the courtroom when they entered.

“Have you reached a solution already?”, the king asked expectantly.

“Yes, your Majesty”, said the Hartebeest.

“We think thus,” started the Hawk, “I, with the power of the waters, can control the flow of the river. I will swim and make a whirlpool in the river water, thus making the buried spot visible.”

“When the vortex is at the exact spot,” said the Hyena, “I’ll use my power of the lightning to crack apart the rocks that bury the treasure with a single powerful bolt.”

The excitement of the king seemed to increase with every word. But he could not imagine any further than this.

“When the box is visible,” said the Lynx, “I’ll use my power of the winds to lift my friend here, and guide him down to it.”

“And I,” said the Hartebeest, even though he knew it was not important for him to speak when the Lynx had made it clear enough, “with my strength, will lift the box up and present it to you.”

Two days later, the entire forest had gathered to witness the grand event presented by their four heroes. The king stood with his ministers on the banks of the river, as the Hawk dived into it. Slowly and steadily, the Hawk changed the course of the water. Within no time, the currents were swirling about the point that the weasel had indicated. The Hawk used all its might to deepen the vortex further down. The mighty applause the crowd gave just when the vortex touched the rocky base of the river was silenced by the thunder of the most powerful lightning bolt they had ever witnessed. The crowd realized that the Hyena had done his job well, as small pieces of rock were thrown about. They again held a mighty applause as the unmistakable glint of gold became visible at the depths of river.

Now the Lynx stood with his eyes shut tight, and called the winds. Soon, everybody was in the need to hide for cover as powerful gusts of wind hurried past them. Again a mighty applause, as the Hartebeest was lifted off the ground and lowered into the river.

It took time for the dust and the storm to subside. But when it did, a tumult of applause broke the eerie silence that had settled upon them. Every pair of eyes seemed to be fixed on the four heroes. Every pair of hands was clapping violently. The animals were screaming wildly; some were bowing. Nobody seemed to notice the little weasel that did nothing but smile.

After what seemed to be long endless minutes, the crowd finally began to lower their voices.

The weasel, knowing this opportunity, shouted, “Hartebeest is the hero!”, and silently slipped away. The rest will be taken care of, he knew.

In the enormous crowd, that single voice went unidentified. But the words were clear. And the crowd fought.

When the king had managed to get the crowd silenced a bit, each of the four heroes claimed himself to be the real hero before him.

“The box would have remained unreachable under the water had I not used my power to control the river. So I am the hero!”

The king nodded.

“But it would have remained buried had I not used my power of lighting. I was the one who made it accessible, so I alone am the hero!”

The king nodded again.

“And you all could have remained satisfied just by looking at the box lying there had I not used my strength to pull it up. There is no question that I am the real hero!”

The king nodded fervently again.

“And you think you could have reached the box to pull it up if I had not used the power of winds to guide you through? Indeed, I’m the real hero!”

The king nodded, even more confused.

The king was asked to pronounce justice on this matter, which, naturally, he couldn’t. The fight that resumed in the crowd was nothing as compared to the historic fight that raged between the four legendary creatures. Tremors shook the earth while the wind seemed to be in such fury that it could uproot all the trees of the forest. The wrath of thunder and lightning threatened to charr one and all to death; and the treacherous waters of the river splashed violently everywhere, potent enough to dilute everything in itself. Fire blazed over the flooded banks of the river, where the ground powerfully split open and the wind-storm raked the cauldron of what seemed to be hell.

When all seemed to have ended, and the ashes and dust subsided, a gasp seemed to travel among the few of the crowd that remained. The four legendary creatures of the forest lay dead upon the forest floor, just a pile of mass, broken and powerless, defeated by each others’ powers.

History has had not, but disgraced place for heroes who knew only vanity.

Then a laugh stunned each one present at the site of disaster. It was harshly laced with irony and was almost challenging. Every head turned in the direction of the sound, and each one of them was dumbfounded to see the weasel walking towards the king, apparently unaffected by the tragedy.

He bowed gently before the king, who stood transfixed in his place even though his clothes were torn and dirty. The king’s eyes widened in a sudden revelation, and for some time it seemed that he could not blink.

“Your Majesty, didn’t I tell you that each one of them was useless?” He moved towards the ornate golden box and, to the surprise of all, picked it up with one hand and opened the lid effortlessly. The crowd gasped as one upon seeing the contents of the box that had caused so much trouble. It was empty.

“And if you still need to proclaim someone as the hero, then it is me, for if it weren’t for me, then all you could have done is worship them till you lived, while they took the kingdom and played with their powers”, the weasel said. “I was the one who placed this box there.”

Almost every face showed nothing but anger and loathing for this creature whose existence seemed to be an increasing burden with every word he spoke. The king’s eyes showed only revulsion and his face too was contorted with anger.

“I pronounce murder on you”, were the five words the king said.

The weasel’s face didn’t change at all. He merely said, “Killing me will not serve any purpose. But even if I’m killed, it won’t be the first time that the eyes of justice are blinded by the clouds of hatred.”

And the weasel was killed.

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The Fox.

The moon was beautiful in the night sky… And it had always been so. But the fox never saw it.

His entire life he had spent in shadows. Living under roofs built by others, he had never known the beauty in building one for himself. Dedicated totally to making something out of his life, he never learned to live it. But how could he?

Of the four limbs that he had when he was born, one was lost to the mercy of his kin. Of the two eyes that he had during his childhood, one was rendered half useless due to his destiny, they told him. Otherwise he was fine.

But unlike other foxes, he could not hunt. He could not disable his prey, let alone kill it. He could not run like others, and neither could he play with them. His parents were his greatest support: he was the more loved of all of his siblings, or so he was told by others. As a child, he enjoyed it all. But things changed when he grew up. His brothers could run anywhere they wanted, but he had to always have his parents around. They grew up cool; he grew up in a cradle. They were told to come back before nightfall, though they never did that. “We are fine, nothing will hurt us!” they'd tell the parents. And it seemed true to him. He never had the opportunity to be scolded by parents. His brothers did all their work together and themselves. They roamed around in the forest, a bunch of ruffians, threatening one and all who came their way. They went about hunting, explored the entire forest, bathed in every lake and river, and walked every road crooning every song they knew or knew not. And he remained in his sweet little home, listening to the half-cooked versions of their tales. He was also supposed to do their work, and never to tell their stories to the parents in case he ever overheard them boasting. He would probably lose some more of his body parts if he did that, he was told.

As he grew up, he realised what he had lost. To be loved by parents is one thing, but to live in the sympathy of others is just as shameful as a hapless king. Yes, he had every other thing he wanted- he had his food ready on the table, he was always accompanied by one or the other, trying to help him as servants did. But all that was not love, he seemed to realize. It was sympathy and the pity they had for his unfortunate situation. He even thought he overheard his parents mumble about his weakness once. And thenceforth, he developed a new feeling, something he had never been taught, or experienced before. For someone like him who was brought up in the midst of so much love and affection, this feeling was unexpected. But he didn’t bother to ponder over the consequences. This new feeling was raw inside him. It was anger, not for his parents, but his fate that had bestowed upon him a life full of misery.

Nothing was eternal, he recalled his mother telling him once, and knew that it was true when both his parents died on a moonless night. That was the first time he was all alone in his house, for the brothers had gone out to drink to their deceased parents’ good health. For the first time he could step out of the door all alone and do whatever he wanted, only if his situation permitted that. He had never seen the night sky so openly. He gazed up above for so long that his neck ached. The audacity of the darkness brought tears to his eyes for a reason he couldn't comprehend. That had to be the end as he knew it. But to his amazement, he realized soon that he was wrong. Life was not hard; life was a killer that did all but kill.

He was nothing short of devastated by his parents departure. As for his brothers, parents seemed to have been the ropes that tethered them to their home. They all left two days after the parents died, to explore the world outside the forest, to make their own lives and live somewhere happily ever after. For two days, he had the leftovers for his dinner. None of them was ready to take him along and bear the burden of his survival. But they did show the courtesy to bid him goodbye. And then they embarked happily onto a journey whose destination they didn’t know. He stood at the gate, watching them go, admiring their courage and luck.

Once the sun passed behind the shades of the tall trees, he felt oddly strange, sitting there alone and hungry. He knew he had to fetch food by any means good or bad, fair or unfair, easy or tough. And so he set out. Luckily, he found a dead cat on his way. Limping and blessing his fortune, he took it home. It had to serve for at least two days. He ate lesser and lesser each day, so that whatever food he got once in a while, could remain for two or three days in case he didn’t get so lucky each time. His body was growing frail, all the more with his limping. He would never become the prey for some other animal- that he was sure of, for no animal could retain its appetite once it saw him. But he had realized that life was a killer. He thought so very often about death that it seemed to him that he could think of nothing else. And he was not to be blamed wholly, for he had nothing else to think of except his colourless and apparently worthless life. But death doesn’t come easy, more so when you want it badly.

One day, as he sat below the shades of an oak tree outside his house, wondering what to do with his life, he heard a voice. It was weak, but then he thought that it were his senses that were getting weak. Nevertheless, he heard the sound again. Oddly, it seemed to be calling him. He looked up and saw a little sparrow perched on one of the tall branches of the tree.

“Are you calling me?”, he asked.

“Yes, I am”, came the gentle reply. “What are you doing here on this bright day?”, the sparrow said.

“Nothing”, he said sadly.

The sparrow flew down and sat beside him. ‘Why are you not out hunting for food?’

To this the fox said, “What makes you think I will not eat you up right now?”

The sparrow kept its calm and politeness and said, “Because you can’t. You are incapable of doing that in your situation!”

The fox sighed and said nothing, since he knew it was the truth. He could never catch the sparrow.

“I don’t mean to offend you Mr. Fox, but I think you are deliberately being weak”, the sparrow continued.

“What do you mean? I can’t even walk, run or see properly, do you know that?”

“Yes, I do. Look at me!”, said the sparrow and lifted its left wing. The fox saw that the wing was improperly formed, it was almost like fractured.

He said nothing.

“And unlike me, you’ve been living off dead animals lying in your way”, the sparrow continued.

Surprised, the fox looked up. “How do you know that? Have you been following me around?”

“Yes, Mr. Fox.”

There was silence.

“You never wondered how all that food seemed to be coming your way, did you?”, the sparrow spoke.

One thing that could astonish the fox more at that time was his limb healing all of a sudden. “You…?”, he stammered.

“Yes, Mr. Fox.”

The fox hung his head in shame. What could be worse than being told that a sparrow nearly one fiftieth of his size, and possibly more seriously injured than himself, had been fetching food for him for so long now. Being a land animal, three legs allowed him to walk, although with great effort. But for a bird, both of its wings were equally important. Any slight defect in either of them could render it useless and incapable of flight. He knew he would never muster the courage to ask the sparrow how it had been helping him for all this time, and so altruistically at that.

“Why do you hang your head always so low, Mr. Fox? Has his habit of yours ever let you see the moon?”, the sparrow asked gently.

“The moon?”, the fox wondered and knew at that instant. He had never seen the moon!

“Yes, Mr. Fox, the moon. Have you ever spared yourself the time to look at the moon, or the starry sky? Have you ever seen that crystalline beauty?”

After a long pause in which all sorts of questions ran through his mind, he said, “No, never.”

“Why?”, said the sparrow in voice so gentle that the fox thought it could summon the moon then and there itself!

“What purposes will that serve?”, asked the fox, a bit defiantly.

“You’ll see the beauty of Nature. You’ll realize what life’s worth.”

“My life’s worth nothing. That’s one thing I know for sure.”

“Then why don’t you kill yourself?”

“I never could... It must be so painful to die...”, the fox said.

“The problem, Mr. Fox, is that you never wonder what life has given you. Always busy with finding out our incapacities and others’ good fate, we never realize how much we ourselves have. So much have you been provided love and affection from your childhood and what have you made of that?”

The fox remained silent.

“Your parents didn’t love you so much because they wanted to make a lazy, self-deploring character out of you. They hoped, that all the love would reflect onto you, that you would someday learn to love yourself. But haven’t you failed them?”

The fox remained silent still. He couldn’t think of anything to say.

“Have you seen the moon?”, he said finally.

The sparrow giggled and said, “Of course I have. Who hasn’t seen the moon but you?”

“What does it look like?”, the fox asked eagerly. He now wanted to see the moon, and he had momentarily forgotten his pains.

“Oh! It’s beauteous! Why don’t you see for yourself tonight?”

“But why do you want me to see the moon?”, the fox asked curiously.

“You and the moon are similar in some respects, Mr. Fox.”

“How?”, the fox was surprised.

“You see Mr. Fox, the moon has no light of its own; it dwells on the light from the sun, like you have lived on the help from others. It has a lot of bumps and holes on its surface, like you have your imperfections. It is always unaccompanied and alone like you.”

The fox felt a sort of happiness in knowing that his situation was shared by someone else too. But the sparrow continued,

“But Mr. Fox, it shines in the light of the sun, unlike you. Its loneliness is its glory, unlike yours. Its ups and downs, the irregularities and imperfections make it all the more beautiful, unlike you. And most importantly, unlike you, the moon does not sit and give up. Travelling over the same skies, following the same pattern, doing its job over and over again, it has gained itself glory and admiration beyond comparison. But what have you done Mr. Fox?”

He hung his head low once again.

“That’s why I want you to see the moon. So that you can learn what life’s worth!”, the sparrow said enthusiastically.

There was a long pause.

“But there’s one condition to see the moon”, the little sparrow said, lifting its deformed wing.

“What’s that?”, the foxed looked up. And he had made up his mind to do anything to set his eyes on that famed moon.

“The one who deserves to see the moon is the one who has done his labour for the day, and has earned his own food.. the one who has worked hard and tried his best to make his living, irrespective of his success.”

The fox was determined to go any extent to see the moon. And so after thanking the sparrow he set out to finish his labour for the day. For the first time in his life, he walked and chased. He ignored the protests from his flailing limb. He ignored all the pain and weakness to find his food. The sun was drifting across the sky; the fox was exhausted, yet unsuccessful. But he overworked his body. He pushed all the limits set by his disability and worked his way through the forest and its roughness.

After the hard work he put up the whole day, sweating and panting, exhausted and completely broken, he sat below a huge tree like he was sitting in the morning. But the difference was that now he had a dead young hound underneath his paws. For the first time in his life, he had hunted his own prey. He was jaded and couldn’t even stand, but he was overjoyed at the prospect of success. It seemed that his heart would fail him any moment. There seemed to be a lack of strength and power all over his body. But somehow, he didn’t care.

The sparrow came yet again to him and twittered merrily, “That’s very good, Mr. Fox, very good indeed!”

The fox smiled weakly and said, “Thanks to you, dear sparrow!”

“Now you can eat your food and wait for the moon to come and show up. I am going high atop this tree and I’ll see from there.”

“Would you like to eat too?”, the fox said gratefully.

“Oh, that’s so very nice of you, Mr. Fox, but I’ve had plentiful for today and I’ll go about hunting once again tomorrow. You really have earned this, and you alone should eat it. Thank you...”

With that, the sparrow pecked the fox softly on his cheek and said,

“May God bless your soul!”

And the sparrow flew up. The fox sat there, amazed at this gesture, and then slowly ate his food. It seemed peculiarly delicious, and he felt full to the brim after eating it all. His health had only deteriorated during this time, but he was satisfied.

It had gotten dark, and the fox, full with anticipation and excitement, sat under a clearing gazing up at the sky. The darkness of the sky was threatening again, but now he could see the twinkling stars. An odd satisfaction and tranquility spread through him, he was peaceful now. Although his fate had not changed a bit since yesterday, he felt some change, some relief now. He wished life could be like this forever.

He lay there waiting for the moon to show up. He gazed at the sky in the hope that moon would spring up out of nowhere, because he didn’t knew how the moon arrived. He thought he heard the sparrow twittering high atop somewhere. But the sounds were getting fainter now. Nearly all the sounds of the living forest were drowning around him. What was this? Was he falling asleep peacefully for the first time in his life? No, this was not the time to sleep. This was the most successful moment of his life, and he had to see the moon tonight. He couldn’t fall asleep now. Not now… any other time, but not now.

The sky showed a slight increase in its luminescence and the sparrow above twittered louder and merrier than ever. On the ground, however, the fox was drifting into a sleep which he had no power to resist. He wished he could prevent it… but now he was feeling peace, a sense of comfort, and placidness, a bliss he could not hope to explain.

High atop the dark and august trees, the sparrow merrily sang praises for the Lord, as the fox fell asleep moments before the full moon shone bright, cool and splendid over his fatigued body.

He never woke up.

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The Delusion

The shack was not different from the others that surrounded it. But today, its sole inhabitant was unlucky. The neighbors had grim faces as they stood surrounding the bed on which he lay, visibly healthy except for the fact that he was dying. His desperate breaths and violent thrashing broke the silence of the dusk. His body was in rots, as if it had started decaying even before his death, his muffled screams gave the effect that he was being choked and tortured by some unseen force….the neighbors were helpless… so were we.

I suddenly recalled how our walk to this place seemed so long ago now. Only a few moments ago we were walking across a park we had visited so many times, with so many friends. But unlike then, there had been a brimming tension and nervousness today. We knew that a short distance away, our worst fears might have already come true. I remember how he had glanced at me, perhaps hoping to see a flicker of fear on my face. I was scared… but in no mood to let him know about it. We had turned a bend, and came to the place where we stood now.

“Do you think it’s the Dovoc that did this?”

His voice startled me...as I woke up from my reverie. Dovoc was a code name, because we didn’t really knew what it was called. Fearsome, powerful and deadly, that was all anyone knew of it.

“Yeah, maybe…..”, I managed.

One of the neighbors suddenly turned and glared at us. Another. Then another. No sooner, we were being glared at by all the people present there. We didn’t need to read their eyes to know what their stares said: why don’t you just leave us alone?

We slipped away, and almost instantly broke into a run, back the way we had come. As we ran across the park, I had a strange feeling. I jerked my head back to confirm it, and what I saw was enough to paralyze me if it were not for adrenaline. Some fifty feet in the air, in its projectile like path was the thing we both dreaded the most. It could not have been Dovoc because it could’ve easily fit into my palm, but I knew it was a part of it.

“Its here, run faster!” I called out to him, and I needn’t see his face to know the horror that had just swept past him. He was nearer to the gate, and if I waited for him to get out first, then he would be the only survivor. So made a frantic decision: to jump over the 4 ft tall park wall. I knew the trees that lined the wall were going to be a problem….. but I had made my decision. I jumped without breaking my run, hoping that my speed would carry me across. And it became the longest jump of my life, both in terms of distance, and air-borne time. It never seemed to end, as I hurtled through the branches over the wall, seemingly weightless, or perhaps like gravity had lost its meaning. Bur I realized my mistake. In jumping so high, I had unwillingly neared myself to it. I could almost hear it rushing through the leaves right behind me, its path perfectly aimed at me. In my descent across the road, I made another frantic decision and twisted myself mid-air to avoid the slightest contact with that object, which would have been enough to put an end to me. I succeeded, but at the cost of my balance. It went brushing slightly against my sleeve and landed on the ground at the spot where I’d have landed, but could not because I had lost my balance completely. I landed roughly on the ground and once again avoided contact with it. I got up fast without even daring to look at it lest it should cost me my vision, though out of the corner of my eye, I could see its acid green surface, dreadfully peaceful.

The next few moments were a blur as I scrambled up to my feet, ignoring my bruises. He joined up and we again started running down the lane…. I don’t think he knew where he was going… but neither did I. He suddenly turned right to another small road and took off without looking back… perhaps he thought I was following.

“That’s the wrong way you’re going, you must not go there!” I called to him. He seemed not to have heard and kept running. I half wanted to follow him, but I knew that path was a wrong choice. Feeling helpless, I carried on my way….hoping that none of us would later have to regret our different choices. I kept running….kept running….for what seemed like ages…

The next thing I knew, I was on a bicycle. I had obtained it from….I don’t know where… I was riding it, pedaling faster. I wanted to say goodbye to everyone I knew before I left this place forever. I had no idea where my family was… I just hoped they were safe… this really had got to be the end of the world…

I saw a house. Somehow, crossing its lawn seemed to be the only way to get to the other side. So I did. But unluckily, its inhabitants were moving around, and certainly no one would miss a bicycle passing through their neatly kept ground. I was told to stop. I knew I was to be punished now…police, probably. But only if I could make any good excuse…and stay here for some time… I’d be safer… I realized soon that I needn’t make any excuse. The house belonged to one of my relatives. They were glad to see me (alive, I realized soon). They had tears in their eyes when they told me how people were missing every day and every hour. Many others of my relatives had gathered there… and many more were absent. No news of my parents either… they were not picking up the phone..

I needed to do something… It’s all because of me, I knew. The more I remained in hiding.. more the wrath would be… I had to give up… I had to surrender… I cannot afford to lose all of them..

“I am going out” I told them.

“No you’re not! We are not letting you go anywhere” their voices were weak. It seemed they no longer had the courage to utter words. I knew they didn’t want to lose me… but that would put an end to all of us.

“Your uncle has gone to find out about your parents” I was told. Although I had a lot of uncles, I suddenly didn’t care to ask who. I just wanted him and my family back. The television was switched on; the news channels were all buzzing with latest updates. ‘More people missing’ seemed to be the chorus. Photos of dead ones were telecasted with the message that the relatives should come and claim their bodies. But the irony was: there was hardly any ‘body’ left after the nauseating decay that started even before the victim’s death. Then suddenly… a group photo… one that I had looked at so many times before….”…inhabitants of the house were all found dead this morning…”

An echoed gasp across the room… and the TV was switched off. Nobody had the courage to listen or see any more. The news had just confirmed the loss of more of our relatives. Many of them were sobbing silently… many sat there shocked… still no news of my parents..

Then the door opened, a man stepped inside and closed it quickly, as if the wind outside was contagious. It was my uncle. He turned to look at all of us. His face, that always reminded me of a great strength, now was soft and glistening with fresh tears. He said nothing… just shook his head as another tear broke from his eye. And with that shaking of his head… shook my world. My parents…my family….no more… no… it couldn’t be…

I was wishing that this really was the end of the world…. Let it be over….. please let it all be over….

I realized I was not crying… in fact, I was angry. I wanted to rip apart Dovoc… cause it as much pain as I could… so I ran, ignoring the screams and shouts of my relatives calling me back…. saying they couldn’t afford to lose another… But I was not coming back… yes… this was the end….this had got to be.

The energy of an exasperated soul dies away quietly. Fading into oblivion, leaving the soul wondering where it came from at the first place…the silence that follows is ear-splitting…

I soon came to halt. Alone. In the middle of nowhere. Silence.

What about my friend who took the other way? Did he survive? Did he suffer what I did?

I found myself in the grounds of a place that was very well known. I was no longer alone now. I could see my friends at some distance. I ran. They all seemed to be quite happy and unaware of what was going on outside. They even welcomed me as usual….did they know what I had gone through? No, and I won’t tell them now….I don’t want them to sympathize with me. They’d learn the truth when time comes….it cannot hide forever….it was on the news…

They planned to play hide-and-seek, same thing that I was playing with death. I had no armor whatsoever; I had no power to put an end to Dovoc. All I could do is wait…wait for some miracle to happen. I didn’t hide…. I chose to see them playing instead. Their game didn’t last long. Soon it was decided to play cricket. For that they’d need bat and ball, which many of them went promptly to collect, while a few stayed back with me.

Was this the time? Should I tell them my pain?

I decided against.

I sat there on the bench, while they chatted on. Those people would be back soon, with a bat and a ball….back from….

“No!” I shouted.

Their heads turned towards me almost in unison.

“Call them back! They’re gonna be dead!”

“They who?”

“I know… they wont come back… I …”

I had no idea where to begin.

They had not the slightest idea what was happening outside.

Just then I saw another of my friend coming from the direction others had gone. He got to me and said,

“Hey, Ajay! What’s up man?”

“did you… did you see them?” I said.

“see who? What are you talking about? You look scared…. What’s the matter?”

“did you see the others? They went the way you were coming now!”

“No, I didn’t see anybody….”

I turned to look at others. They seemed shocked and surprised. They had no idea what would’ve happened to the others…..

Someone was laughing in the background. I closed my eyes.

‘Stop laughing!’, I thought to myself.

He laughed again.

‘How can you laugh now?? People are dying! How can you laugh?’, I thought again.

People were talking now.

‘Stop talking! Will you just let me think?’, I thought angrily.

They did not seem to be in a mood to stop their conversation.

‘Will you just let me concentrate? I just lost my parents’, I thought furiously now.

A second’s silence, and talking again.

‘Who is this?’, I thought and turned around to see who it was.

My mom and dad stood there. The television was switched on. The rays of the morning sun were filtering through the window, and I lay in my cozy and blanketed bed, sweating profusely. I craned my neck to see them properly. Yes! I blinked my eyes. Yes! Yes! I shook my head, half expecting to wake up from a dream…. But how could I? I had just done so…